what can i say to begin? I’ve repeated this storey a hundred times in snippets to several people, i could honestly tell you that in the last four years ive seen people overdose,bottled, stabbed,love,drugs,clubs every flem filled dirty street corner and every crack alley the red light district to the social workers, but in today’s society, that would be seen as ‘gloating’ in some sort of twisted way, i can tell you now,that is not bragging of any sort 16 years old is too young for that life,you lose who you are,friends become business partners and you soon find yourself hating the world,your mind flecks away without you realising an before you know it,your willing to stoop to any level to feel a buzz, any kind of law to break anyway you can come home at night with enough drugs to get you asleep,  people told me and told me that this isn’t reality and i kept telling them it is for some people,my friends,certain parts of my family,i honestly believed that the world owed me a living because im in this mess. luckily, i had a way out and not many people in my position have that so i made the choice to come back to my home town and rebuild what remains of my mind, get a steady job, a steady girl, some education, I’m not gonna lie its extremely difficult, being the social reject i am :p adjusting to slang, humour,full time employment,and eventually coming off drugs plus not leaving your house clutching a shank for dear life praying you dont get mugged! im a hairline away from a breakdown, but im a man! i can handle these things! :p

but hey i don’t want to look at this as depressing, because its not! the life i had was, but the life im building now will be a long difficult road, hopefully ill get there with a little support from my friends, my mum, and a bank account :p

slowly, im getting there, i know because in those years if someone had asked me what was the meaning of life i would’ve answered ‘survive,get high,reproduce and die’ but 6 weeks here already now i would say beauty, everything from the crisp pristine mountains reflecting of the murky waters of carlingford, to making a pretty girl laugh because of a terrible joke and seeing a smile creep up on her face, all these things add up to make life worth it, im not low about not being high 24/7, im just in the middle and so far im enjoying it :) 1st post! bit serious but ya know! wanted to get that all sorted!

simplicity, that’s the closest you get to perfection and im working on it ;)